life

went to attend grand-uncle's funeral + cremation.
he's my mum's father's sister's husband.

not exactly close, (cos it's mainly my grandfather's generation people), but every CNY, he's always there.
i remember going over to Bangkok in 2007 (or 2006) for his 70th birthday -- he's not Thai but he's there for leisure.

when my brother was still young, every CNY he would play those Lion Dance troupe Competition Discs for him to watch cuz at that time, my brother was interested in it.

there's a void in my heart cuz afterall, we're relatives, we do have bonds, ...
i won't get to call him "lao tioh"again.

at the time the coffin was being transported into the chamber... i clenched my hands on the railings.
so emotional beyond words. if i already felt this much of pain seeing it, i can't imagine what would happen if it were...........

ah, let's face it. our end destination is always the better place above.
lao tioh, please be smiling down on us from where you should be (:

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went to the funeral, met my grandparents + uncle there.
my grandpa asked me twice, on different times
" You've no class today? "

I felt it. It was as though it was a sign, telling me that I haven't been seeing my family a lot these days, these weeks.

Sometimes I wonder, what would happen if I were never a SL.